~My Life: Failure and Success~

It has been 2 days since we leave 2008 behind, and for Muslim it has been 4 days for us to be in Muharram 1430. Happy New Year to all of you. Try to think for a while...what have we done for the past one year? Have we achieved what we aim for?

For me, there is a lot of things I've planned for the past one year, some were able to be done but most are still in my TO-DO list. It's normal for us to set a target or plan to do something, but in the end it is still unfinished. Bak kata orang, kita mampu merancang, tapi Allah yang menentukan. Does that considered as failure? Failure to achieve the target that we aim for? Well, it depends on individual interpretation on the meaning of failure. There could be thousand of reasons for failure to happen, malang tak berbau, right? When talking about failure, I would like to attach some article which has been forwarded in my email. Not really sure the sources of this article...but it is really nice and inspiring.

“Hidup saya penuh kegagalan. Daripada kecil hingga dewasa, ada sahaja masalah dalam setiap perkara. Ada saja yang tak kena. Dah masuk universiti, keluar balik, masuk universiti yang lain. Tengok orang lain berjaya, kadang-kadang iri hati juga, tapi apa nak buat, saya dan kegagalan dah macam adik beradik," kata seorang teman.

Saya terfikir tentang kejayaan dan kegagalan. Bukan semua orang ditakdirkan untuk berjaya di dalam kehidupan. Dan bukan semua orang ditakdirkan untuk gagal. Mungkin itulah warna warni kehidupan. Ada naik dan turun. Ada yang penuh gilang gemilang. Ada yang sederhana. Dan ada juga yang tak berjaya walaupun berkali-kali mencuba. Tetapi apakah sebenarnya tanda pengukur bagi kejayaan dan kegagalan?

Adakah dengan tidak berjaya menjejakkan kaki ke universiti anda dianggap gagal? Adakah kejayaan itu adalah dengan selalu mendapat kepujian dekan pada setiap semester dan straight A's dalam peperiksaan dan...dan...dan.

Allah ada menyebut di surah Al-Ankabut (2-3): Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: "Kami beriman", sedangkan mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan). Dan demi sesungguhnya ! Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada mereka, maka (dengan ujian yang demikian), nyata apa yang diketahui Allah tentang orang yang sebenar-benarnya beriman dan nyata apa yang diketahui-Nya tentang orang-orang yang berdusta."

Jadi, jangan sesekali kita mengaggap diri kita sudah berjaya, sedangkan laluan untuk kejayaan tersebut adalah mudah. Kegagalan adalah satu proses bagi kita mencapai kejayaan. Alexander Graham Bell berjaya mencipta telefon selepas hundreds of "trial and error". Adakah cubaan sebelum itu dianggap gagal?

Kegagalan adalah suatu proses dalam anda nak mencapai kejayaan. Kegagalan juga menambah warna, perisa dan perasa dalam resipi kejayaan anda. Well, tak seronoklah kalau mudah je mendapat kejayaan dan kemenangan, kalau tak ada kesusahan dan kegagagalan. Betul tak? Tanda ukur bagi kejayaan dan kegagalan jangan sesekali dinilai menggunakan akal fikiran dan pancaindera manusia yang terbatas. Mungkin secara zahirnya kita gagal, tetapi hikmah yang akan berlaku di sebalik kegagalan tak dapat ditentukan. Tanda ukur bagi kejayaan dan kegagalan adalah pada Allah S.W.T. berdasarkan firman berikut "Telah berjaya mereka yang menyucikan hati mereka dan telah gagallah mereka yang mengotorkan hati mereka". Siapa yang berjaya dah siapa yang gagal? Adakah anda dapat menilai?

MY COMMENT: ALTHOUGH THAT "TEMAN" IN THE 1ST PARA IS NOT REFERRING TO ME, BUT SEEMS LIKE ME ONCE BEFORE. MY LIFE WAS FULL OF SUCCESS WHEN I WAS IN PRIMARY AND SECONDARY SCHOOL. I NEVER THOUGHT OF FAILURE TO BE HAPPENED IN MY LIFE. I HAVE MY OWN TARGET FOR MY FUTURE. THE SUCCESS THAT I'VE ACHIEVED MADE ME LUPA DARATAN...HEHEHE.

WHEN I'M I'M ENTERING MRSM FOR MY HIGHER SECONDARY SCHOOL, I STARTED TO ENJOY MYSELF. AT THIS TIME I THINK THAT SUCCESS WILL ALWAYS COMES...MMG LUPA DARATAN TIME NI HEHEHE. HERE, FROM SOMEONE WHO ALWAYS BEEN KNOWN FOR HIS SUCCESS BEFORE, I'M STILL BECOME A SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN KNOWN, BUT FOR HIS INFAMOUS ACT-PONTENG KELAS, FLY MALAM FOR SNOOKER N WAYANG, SMOKING (ALREADY STARTED WHEN I WAS 13) AND ETC. LUCKY ME, I PASS THE EXAM WITH FLYING COLOURS. EVEN MY TEACHERS WERE SURPRISED WITH MY RESULTS.

I STILL BRING THAT ATTITUDES WHEN ENTERING PRA-UNI FOR MY A-LEVEL. TAMBAHAN PULA DENGAN NEWS THAT STUDENTS WILL NOT BE SENT FOR OVERSEAS DUE TO ECONOMIC CRISIS (MASA TU TENGAH GAWAT), I'VE NO MODE ON FOCUSING ON MY STUDIES. BEEN TO A LOCAL UNIVERSITY AFTER FINISHING MY A-LEVEL, SEMANGAT UNTUK STUDY FOR ME N MOST OF MY FRENS DAH LOW, BECAUSE OUR TARGET DAH LARI JAUH FROM WHAT WE HAVE PLANNED BEFORE. MASING-MASING DAH PASANG ANGAN-ANGAN NAK MAIN SALJI KAT OVERSEA...HEHEHE.

SO, ME N MY FREN FILLING UP OUR DAYS DENGAN ENJOY - MALAM LEPAK KEDAI MAMAK, THEN GO TO SNOOKER UNTIL 3-4 AM. IT HAS BEEN OUR DAILY ROUTINE. GOING TO CLASS...KADANG-KADANG JE KALAU TERJAGA ON TIME :) I SURVIVED FOR ABOUT 3 SEMESTER THERE BEFORE DECIDING TO QUIT, TOGETHER WITH FEW FRENS.

THEN WE START LOOKING FOR JOBS. AFTER FEW MONTHS WORKING AT SONY AS QUALITY CONTROLLER (QC), WE START TO THINK ON CONTINUE OUR STUDY. WE ALREADY FELT MACAM MANA SUSAH BILA DAH BEKERJA...NOT AS ENJOYING AS STUDENT LIFE. WE APPLIED FOR ANOTHER LOCAL UNIVERSITY AND ALHAMDULILLAH OUR APPLICATIONS WERE ACCEPTED, ITUPUN AFTER PROCESS RAYUAN ETC. (WE HAVE TO GO FOR RAYUAN BECAUSE WE APPLY USING OUR A-LEVEL RESULTS, YANG TAK PERNAH ORG LAIN BUAT LAGI. KALAU GUNA RESULTS SPM, WE HAVE TO UNDERGO AT LEAST 1 YEAR OF MATRICULATION).

SINCE WE ALREADY KNOW MACAM MANA SUSAHNYA BILA BEKERJA, GOING THROUGH THE HARD PROCESS TO GET OUR APPLICATION ACCEPTED, FEELING OF BEING REJECTED AND GOT THE TAG "DARE TO FAIL", WE REALLY APPRECIATED THE OPPURTUNITY AND DON'T WANT TO WASTE THE CHANCE TO GET OUR FIRST DEGREE. HERE, WE START TO KEEP BACK OUR FOCUS ON FINISHING THE STUDY. BUT SOMETIMES STILL GOING FOR SNOOKER AND LEPAK KAT KEDAI MAMAK. ALHAMDULILLAH ALL OF US ARE NOW SUCCESS IN OUR OWN WAY.

NOW I REALLY APPRECIATED THE SUCCES THAT I'VE ACHIEVED. ONCE YOU'VE BEEN INTO FAILURE, YOU'LL NOT TAKING THINGS IN EASY WAYS. IT IS TRUE THAT KEGAGALAN IS THE PROCESS ON ACHIEVING KEJAYAAN. YOU'LL LEARN A LOT OF THINGS FROM THE FAILURE, AND WHAT ME N MY FRENS HAVE LEARN IS LIFE. ONCE YOU GET THE SUCCES, YOU'LL APPRECIATED IT VERY MUCH, CAUSE YOU HAVE GONE A LONG, HARD WAY TO GET IT. ANYWAY, LIFE IS SWEET EH...